Daniel Series: Giving God the Credit

Some good thoughts from my wonderful girlfriend 🙂

Steadfast and Fearless

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I had a really weird dream last night.  All I remember was that my boyfriend’s family and I were on their boat and I had my iPad on the boat with me and it flew off and sunk to the bottom of the lake.  The rest of the dream was all about how I how to budget to get a new computer because I needed one for grad school.  And then I woke up, confused as ever.

Now, this dream probably doesn’t have too much meaning.  Even if it did, I certainly wouldn’t even know where to begin to interpret it. However, in Daniel 2, Daniel does know how to interpret dreams.  Dreams were considered to be messages from the gods.  The king desperately wanted someone to be able to tell him the meaning of his strange dream and when the astrologers attempted to interpret it, they were unable and…

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Definition of Me

It has been a while since my last blog post and a lot of things have happened since then. I had lost a lot of motivation to do things and get the things I needed to get done. It has been a very stressful couple of weeks, but SOME good has come out of it all.

Last Friday was the last Mudhouse of the year. Mudhouse is a college event that a group of students and I put on and have put on this year. It is a night full of worship and a teaching that really gives college students around the city a chance to really have a chance to rest in the presence of God. The biggest part I had in the whole process this year was to create a worship environment and ultimately lead worship for the event. It was a big task, but I have really learned a lot through this journey I have grown so much this year. And something that has been on my mind for the past couple days after I had the chance to process it all was the fact that I have been using this event to define who I am and what I do. There have been such good times throughout this whole journey that are not only apart of Mudhouse, but I should not have found my value in the work I was producing. This last one did not go the way I had planned it, but it taught me so much that no matter what I do to plan, it works out and through the mistakes and things that go wrong, God still is able to weave His good purpose and plan into it. And it showed me how much things are not about me and what I do. Instead of my plan and what I do, my identity needs to be in Christ alone and not the things I produced whether they are good or bad. Yes this year has been so good and so challenging, but there are always more opportunities and I will use those opportunities to continue to glorify God with the gifts that He has given me.

“But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”    -2 Corinthians 12:9-10

 


Why I Don’t Raise My Hands in Worship

raising hands“I’ll stand with arms high and heart abandoned…” 

When we typically see these lyrics on the screen at church and when we sing them, what do we do? We do exactly what the words are saying. We stand and raise our arms high. And with many other worship songs, we often do the same thing. Are we doing it because we genuinely desire to lift our hands, or is that the part of the song when we are supposed to raise our hands because the lyrics say we need to?

For the latter, I DO NOT lift my hands in worship. I do not want to sit in the congregation and raise my hands just because the lyrics say so.  And in my own life and worship experience, I cannot tell you how many times I have been singing in worship and thrown my hands up when I read those words on the screen. This is something that we all have and will struggle with in the context of worship. So with that being said, reasons that I do not lift my hands in worship include: Because the lyrics say so, or because everyone around me is raising their hands, or even for the occasional early morning stretch. I want to get rid of those altogether, and create reasons why we should raise our hands in worship.

If you can think back to your childhood or if you have been blessed to have children of your own, you can remember the young child running to their daddy or mommy, lifting up their hands towards their loved one, and repeating, “Hold me, hold me!” It is something that I will never forget with my father. I would come running to him, asking him to hold me. I did that more than I probably should have, and later in my years than I should have. But there is something special that comes with lifting your hands up to the one that cares so much for you. And that is the attitude I want to keep when worshiping my Wonderful Savior. In worship, I am lifting and raising my hands to my Eternal Daddy saying, “Hold me, hold me.”  

And, if you had any older siblings growing up, you and I both know how it feels to be picked on. I grew up with three older siblings, which included two older brothers and the oldest sibling being my sister. My two brothers would use me for any crazy idea or project that they didn’t want to try out first. But their favorite role of being an older brother was the opportunity to have an air-soft gun war. Of course, it would be the both of them against me and one of my friends, and we would always lose. At that point of inevitable defeat, we threw up our hands and we surrendered. We had our whole body showing as a target and our hands were raised high, and at that point we were very vulnerable. It was at that time when we realized that we can’t get out of this mess on our own, and we had to surrender. When we lift our hands in worship, we are surrendering everything we have to God, and He will never take advantage of that vulnerability like an older sibling would, but we are ultimately saying to Him that we give everything we are to Him. We realize that nothing we do can save ourselves or get ourselves out of the mess we are in. We realize we are in need of a Savior, and we surrender all we are to Him.

Let’s challenge ourselves to genuinely “…stand with arms high and heart abandoned,” rather than doing it because the lyrics tell us to. (or for the occasional stretch 🙂 ) 

“I call to you, Lord, come quickly to me; hear me when I call to you. May my prayer be set before you like incense; may the lifting up of my hands be like the evening sacrifice.” (Psalm 141:1-2)

I Am a Glorious Ruin

photo (6)   What is a glorious ruin?

This question has been taking over how I think of myself and how I perceive my own identity. I think we all at one time, if not more, deal with identity and who we are. Let’s think of it this way: We live in a very broken society and world, and these are things we notice everyday whenever the news is turned on or any conversation is started up. You could say that the world has become a ruin of what was originally…perfect. “God saw all that he had made, and it was very good.” (Genesis 1:31) You see since then, we have become a very broken and ruined world, and by the grace of God, we have been saved.

God took me, a broken and sinful man, and by His grace alone, I am restored. The world we live in takes something that is glorious and twists it and makes it into a broken ruin, but God takes that ruin, that brokenness, and he makes it glorious.

This is the attitude and perspective I want to focus on, think, and live out of. Only by the grace of God, am I saved, and there is nothing I can do to earn or make God love me the way He does. That unconditional love is the thing that changes lives and restores those ruins from the place of brokenness they have been in.